Friday, 26 August 2011

Day 4 – Name a stereotype or cliche you can relate to

Well, the whole "goths are introspective intellectuals and always create their own art/poems/whatever" thing I guess. I write stuff, lots of stuff, weird stuff. Books, novellas, poems. Most of them I throw away when complete, haha, but still. I want to write, or sing, or both, for a living. I also read Kafka because I actually like his writing, not because it scores me smart-person-points. Heheh. Stuff like that.

Also, I'm obsessed with bone jewellery(real bones, not the cheesy fake ones people keep putting in their deathhawks). I guess that's kind of cliche?

Thursday, 25 August 2011

Day 3 – When did you come out the Goth closet?

I'm not entirely sure what this means. I was never really in a "goth closet". If I had not started dressing oddly at all, I belive the people who knew me would have been much more surprised. If I had listened to boring radio pop, not only would I have made a lot of people very surprised but I would also have like... disappointed my parents. Haha. Okay not really.

Seriously though, it was really no big deal. Wearing odd clothes was something that I had gradually been doing more and more throughout my entire life, apart from age 13-14 when there's a lot of pressure on you to fit in which I wanted to try to see what it was like, and then I started listening to the music, and everybody was like: "So what?".

A few outfits I forgot to post

Wednesday, 24 August 2011

Day 2 – Share photos and experiences from your Baby Bat days

Err, okay. I never had baby bat days the way most people think of them. My first year of being into goth, I really only cared about the music. So I would spend most of my time listening to it or reading about the bands, when I wasn't reading books or hanging out with the few friends I had at the time(I was super shy, and also had a severe case of social phobia). I never really got around to trying to join the "scene", dress uglily or act like a dork. Possibly because I was so shy. I did in fact not dress like a goth at all untill I was 15, so any pictures from my "baby bat" days will be me being blond and wearing something all blue or something black and white and having smokey brown eyeshadow. Just like before I took any interest in goth. Boring as hell, but at least I was never downright ugly. Around the middle of my 15th year of life I magically morphed into a bit of a Siouxsie clone. Then, after a few months, I got my own style. I'd wear typically trad goth stuff mixed upp with huge necklaces and bustiers and corsets. (I've always been secretly fond of dark cabaret, and it'd shine through I guess.)

What did I do as a "baby bat"? I don't really know. My early teens were the worst part of my life, for big and serious reasons, and my brain tries to censor those years a bit. I didn't really do goth stuff because I was too busy having a horrible life. Things got better though, obviously, much better, but I really cannot mention my early teens without also mentioning that it was hell on earth.

Music and literature were the few highlights of that time. And also the few friends I had. I only knew one girl who also liked goth music (I was aquainted with another one, but we really weren't close). It wasn't her favourite genre or anything, but we both really liked the Banshees and The Cure and The Virgin Prunes at the time, and developed a silly crush on the band The Glove(which has members from both Banshees and Cure, as I'm sure most people bothering to read this know). We'd sing and play their music really loud, and constantly nag about what an underrated song the Banshees' "Sin in my heart" was. We'd also stay up in the middle of the night and watch Monty Python, or go into town and eat ice cream and brownies. We're still friends today, she's a great girl.

Yeah. That's what I did at the time.

Oh, and look at the pretty pictures. Not sure that I actually am 14 on all of them, I might be 15, but this is pretty much what I looked like at the time.

Yeah, I actually looked like this. My favourite bands were Siouxsie and the Banshees, Virgin Prunes, Joy Division, The Cure, 45 Grave, Cinema Strange and Alien Sex Fiend and I looked like this. Makes no sense. I guess I tried to blend in with the other kids a bit? It didn't work.

Oh, my god. This has turned into "the story of my childhood". Ugh. Hopefully the next questions will result in slightly less childhood-related things.

Monday, 22 August 2011

30 Days Goth Challenge - Day 1 - How did you come across the subculture?

I am secretly a dork with absolutely nothing to write about. I am also, less secretly, very fond of goth music and, y'know, familiar with the subculture. So I guess I'm a goth. Same way I'm also a postpunker. Or a random artsy chick. Or an atheist. Or any of the hundreds of other things I also am.

(I think people who try to defy all labels are silly. I plan on writing a post on this some time. Labeling is in my mind really only silly when people try to adjust their real selves to better fit a label. However, denying that you are part of something or that you have something in common with someone just so you can feel like a super special individual is pathetic. Of course there is no point in over-useing labels. But they're handy sometimes. We are all, however, many different things and only when combined can they even begin to reflect the true complexity of our natures.)

So, errr, I thought I'd combine these things somehow and answer Juliet's Lace's goth challenge. At least this means that I will write something in my damn blog.

I have the feeling my answers will be incredibly boring and overtly logical. Fret not though, I'm throwing in a gigantic outfit post soon.

Day 1 – How did you come across the subculture?
Day 2 – Share photos and experiences from your Baby Bat days.
Day 3 – When did you come out the Goth closet?
Day 4 – Name a stereotype or cliche you can relate to.
Day 5 – Is there a local Goth band or group in your area?
Day 6 – Handwrite your favourite lyric and take a picture.
Day 7 – Ten of your favourite goth bands.
Day 8 – What's your worst and best experience with non-Goths?
Day 9 – What genre of music do you dislike?
Day 10 – What do you hate and love about the subculture?
Day 11 – Is Goth a lifestyle for you?
Day 12 – What's your gothic inspiration?
Day 13 – What was your first band t-shirt?
Day 14 – What was your best and worst DIY disaster.
Day 15 – Your favourite or most expensive item in your wardrobe.
Day 16 – What's the most casual you've ever dressed?
Day 17 – Your favourite Goth brand.
Day 18 – Worst hair experience.
Day 19 – Share beauty advise and take a photo of your make up.
Day 20 – If you could dye your hair any colour what would it be?
Day 21 – What body mod do you have or have you considered?
Day 22 – If you could attend any Goth event what would it be?
Day 23 – Your favourite artist or photographer.
Day 24 – Name the best websites for Goths.
Day 25 – Did you ever consider leaving the subculture?
Day 26 – Show a photo for every year (or month if you're new) that you've being into Goth.
Day 27 – The worst thing you ever did to a newbie.
Day 28 – Do you consider yourself an eldergoth?
Day 29 – What do you think will happen to Goth in the future?
Day 30 – Make a list of blogs you regularly read and link to them.

I grew up in a family that regularly played The Cure every time music was needed. I was doomed from the start, hehe. Not that I had any idea that any of The Cure's songs could be labeled "goth" when I was a kid, though.

I always had an odd sense of aesthetics growing up. Which led to me being fascinated with any- and everything that looked distorted, peculiar, torn, asymetric. I would look at people from all kinds of subcultures and think they looked marvelous. I decided to do research on some of them, and found out that quite a lot of them were very different in reality from how they were portrayed in the media. I wondered if this was the case with the goth subculture, which had always seemed rather cheesy and over-dramatic to 13-year-old me. So I looked into it, and, dear god, it was. However, at the time I had absolutely no intentions of ever becoming a goth myself. I was happy with being a vague, hard-to-define, artsy girl with a slightly "darker" outlook on life. (Gosh, this sounds incredibly silly, but I've always been sort of introspective and... fascinated with macabre things. Not in a typically goth way though. ;)) Plus, I did not take any interest in music anything other than appriciating more complex kinds as a violinist. Essentially, my interest in music at the time was technical and completly lacked passion.

Then, one day (I was 14-ish, I think), an old friend of my father decided to give our family this huge mixtape of doom (on a dvd) which had pretty much all the music he liked as a twenty-something on it. It contained a lot of electronic music, 80's pop stuff, some synthpop, new romantic, and to my surprise, lots of postpunk and a bit of goth. I listened to some random songs, then thought, "Hey, y'know, I sorta wonder what this goth music that everybody keeps nagging about sounds like?" So I put on Siouxsie and the Banshees'(who I had heard was one of those goth bands) "Spellbound" and fell in love. It was like nothing I'd ever heard before. Needless to say, Siouxsie and the Banshees were my first music crush, and from that day on I sure had a passion for music. I kidnapped my dad's old record collection, decided I liked a few of the records, found out they were postpunk, and in one case (The Cure's "Pornography") goth. And after that I guess I just decided that this whole goth/postpunk-thing was for me. I didn't dress anything remotely close to a goth until I was 15, though, but I guess that goes in the next post?

My, oh, my. This is one lengthy meditiation on an, to anyone but me I suspect, incredibly dull subject.