Hi again

I'm not sure whether anyone reads this anymore. It's never been much of a blog, it's mostly a place for me to gather my outfit pics and put up a lot of navel gazing stuff.

But I left everything for a while, and I've grown so much over the last eight months. I have made discoveries about life and myself, some of them expected and some of them entirely new to me, foreboded only by a life long sense of not belonging. I've been in almost a vacuum for some while now. I'm not sure what I've done, exept read a lot, loved like there was no tomorrow and accepted what I cannot change.

I should get out again and meet people. Soon my last year of university studies will start. Soon I should get started with what might become a really good band. Soon I should try to secure what might become an exellent job opportunity.

Soon I should finish a fucking book.

No, now. I'll do it now. I know who I am and what I want now, more clearly than ever. I just have to get out there, now, or I'll be stuck inside my own head forever.

Dear deer

My new Lotta JSK!


Also I have a new wig:

Also, I have interesting things to blog about, but it won't happen right now. I have too much to do at university. Plus I write more for myself  these days, and one of these days I feel like it might result in a book I don't hate.

It's been a long time.

Hi. My computer broke, I had tons of work at university, my band kicked me out for not being a man, and I got myself a proper romantic relationship that's official and all that these days. Err, yes. I'm exhausted.

But now I'm back, sort of. And I'm happy, but stressed out. Yes. Hopefully I'll post something tomorrow.

Night sky

Tokyo Expo - I didn't do a lot , but the pictures are pretty

My outfit, hehe. I like wearing autumn dresses when it's still summer.


Elli and Emilia are cosplaying Little Twin Stars, in case anyone is wondering.








So, I went to Tokyo Expo, looked at things, met some people, took a lot of pictures. I really didn't do a lot there, and I'm sort of tired with the whole people-obsessed-with-japanese-pop-culture thing and the lolita subculture too, so I'm not sure why I went, haha. I guess 'cause I'm aquainted with a lot of people there?

However, these days I'd rather just wear whatever I wear, japanese or not, and be left the hell alone. Same way I've always felt about music. I like what I like and I don't feel that I need to belong to any subculture because of it. Organised stuff and closely knit cliques tend to freak me out anyhow.

(I would like to point out, again, that I don't mind labels. I just don't want to be friends with everyone who happens to fit the same labels as me, just because of the label. My friendships run deeper that that. Still have an upcoming post on labels lying around, haha. :3 )

Yes.

But the pictures turned out lovely. And the awesome people are awesome.

Day 5 – Is there a local Goth band or group in your area? + a small unrelated thing

Hi pumpkins!
I'm so sorry for randomly disappearing, especially after I started the whole challenge thingy and all... It's just that I've been super busy doing really awesome stuff, quite unexpectedly. Some of this stuff I've been doing is music related, which I think excuses everything. Heh. Once that music stuff is anywhere closer to done, I'll shower you with links and posts and god knows what. You know I will.

Anyhow, I'll try to do many of the challanges in one day untill I catch up. Not today, though.

So. Local goth groups.
Well, there's Dansdepartementet, I guess. I think they're okay.

There are no currently active goth bands in Sweden that I know of, but there are definitely some goth-friendly, post-punk inspired ones.
Diskoteket, for example, that I've recently found out about and turned out to really like. They let you download some songs from their last.fm, so go there and have a listen.

Oh hi there.

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Sorry I haven't updated lately. I was on a boat in Italy, which would have been lovely had I not been so sea sick. Apparently, I get sea sick easily. I had no idea. I never used to as a kid, and I've spent ridiculous amounts of time on boats.

Anyhow, I have started playing the bass guitarr. Which is incredibly fun, and brings back these weird ghosts of memories from when I was young and played the violin(I did so for 6 years). I'm learing pretty quickly... Might have something to do with old violin- and general music-knowledge hiding in the back of my brain somewhere.

Uppcon 11

Last week, I started off summer by going to the convention for japanese popular culture in Uppsala called Uppcon with a few friends. We mostly ran around and giggled, but we also attended a lolita meet and saw a Versailles concert. Really fun, the audience was totally wild and at the end half of them had left their seats and tried crawling up on stage.

Anyhow, here are a few pictures.


My outfit the first day.




























Me twinning with Elli of http://springbells.blogspot.com/



Okay, a lot of pictures.


I had to get home early on Saturday to sing at a birthday party togheter with my friend Elvira on the piano, as part of the entertainment for the evening. It was sort of sad to leave before everyone else did, but we had fun anyhow, and it only took a few minutes before people at the party stopped ignoring us and actually stood and listened. I love how some people honestly thought we were professionals. Perhaps we will be some day, who knows?

Really old picture

I found this picture from when I was 16-17 or something... I need to do this outfit + hair again. It'll be fun with my new super-red hair twice the length of the old one. I used to think my hair was red when I was 16. Now it really just looks brown with slight hints of bordeaux.

Cherry Blossoms and a Lolita Flea Market

On Saturday me and some friends went to look at the pretty cherry blossoms at Kungsträdgården and then have a fika.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fika_%28coffee_break%29
I love how wikipedia seriously has an article on that.



A guy told me I looked like Amelie Poulain would if she was a gothic lolita. I thought that was sort of adorable.

Sunday I went to TokyoStops Lolita Flea Market. (Yes, there are a lot of themed flea markets in Sweden for some reason!)


This is what I bought:

An ordinary monday-outfit

Oh, look, a casual outfit.






Yay, winklepickers!

Some friends got really confused this weekend when they saw me in all black gothic lolita with a Louise Black skeleton-corset and with this wig. Said it wasn't like me at all. Hrrmm, I have the feeling more of my "lolita friends" (isn't that a silly expression?) need to see me out of lolita. Since half the time I look like... this. So it's totally like me. I pretty much only wear color in sweet/classic lolita or fairy kei. Possible little hints of color in vintage-y outfits. Otherwise it's 90% black and 10% white. And lots of sort of peculiar stuff. Like my anatomically correct heart earrings. And lots of ugly-pretty clothes. You know, ugly-pretty. When something is ugly and pretty at the same time, or possibly so ugly it's pretty. "Fulsnygg" in swedish. One of my favourite phenomenas.

My style shifts all the time. But for some reason I mostly wear lolita when around other lolitas. I'm not sure why.

By the way...
I really don't understand why so many people in the lolita subculture hate wigs these days... Wigs are awesome, especially if you don't feel like styling your hair or you're having a bad hair-day. Or if you're simply a shape-shifter born in the wrong body.
Just find one that actually suits you. And cut the fringe to suit your face. There, done.
I always wear wigs when I have bad hair-days. Bad hair-days are really quite noticable when you have 75 cm long, very red hair.

Last weekend

Yeah, I know. "Hello, slow updater!" I had a busy week. I always have busy weeks.
Anyhow, last Saturday I went to a vintage fair with my dear friend Agnes, who unfortunatly dislikes to have her picture taken.

This is what I looked like then:







I found absolutely nothing to buy, unfortunatly. Except for things that costed like 2000 SEK and I can't really afford that right now. Afterwards, we went to Petite France and I ate the prettiest little macaron thingy I've ever seen.




On Sunday there was a lovely picnic with some lovely girls: